Happy? Sad?

HAPPY... In a flash, it's coming to the end of Jan 2008... N i m goin back soon! I nit to pack my luggage again, n spending another nite in LCCT while waiting for da early check-in... Then depart, then i ll b reunited wid my family n frens again... how wonderful it's... But... wad's goin to happen after tat? ok... i ll b spending 11 days in Miri, then back to KL.... after tat, it ll b a few months again b4 i can reli b wid my family n frens... huh... y? y? y? SAD...

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Sometimes, i m reli envying my frens (who lived in Peninsula Malaysia)... KL to Johor, by bus 3 to 4 hours, RM 15 ++... hey, compared to mine... KL to Miri, by plane 2 hrs, more than RM100! UNFAIR rite? Da way back to Miri is oways a tiring 1... I nit to take taxi/bus to LCCT which consumes me about 1 hour, n i nit to b in LCCT to check-in 2hours b4 my flight departs... another 2 hrs plus in plane, then i only reach Miri... Total up, i take 5 hours plus... huh... da feeling of meeting my family, i gotta store it inside my heart 4 up to 5 hrs...! hmmm...

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I haven reli planned wad 2do during this trip back... wad's in my mind is only da court case... other than tat, i m still in a blur mode... I noe i hafta brief something about the inter unit competition... i nit to go 4 da 1st aid duty... i ll join da lion dance troupe... anymore? hmmm... then my days ll pass very very fast, n pop~10 days past, packing luggage, n back to KL... ~"Predicted Recycle Life of Mine"~

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Wuz shocked when i received call from mom, sis is sick... Is a bit serious compare to usual, n m quite worry bout her... hope da medicine reli works, n she can recover very soon... Recently da disease reli "bo ka si" (no manner), keep on infecting from 1 to 1... Nit 2 pray hard to God, make sure He ll kill all da germ to protect His ppl...

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Public holiday ended, n 2molo i ll nit to gt back to Faculty again... After 2molo, i wont b having class till Mon... gonna spend my weekend shopping for new year's clothes! "Think b4 buy, b a clever consumer"... <--- Tat's da quote 4 idiot consumer!

Phew...

At last... It comes to the end of my packed-life, i can finally take a good break... I wuz jz out from da exam hall an hour ago. Although i din do reli well, at least i can feel phew now... My shoulder out of a sudden, so light... No more burden... Jz feel tat my midnite's oil is not reli worth... I din have enuff sleep yesterday coz i wuz "struggling hard" doin my last minute preparation... but... hmmm... not reli worth as i don think wad i stored into my mind can be used in today's paper... Nvm, tat's wad we called "Welcome to Faculty of Law!!!"

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I wuz back to Sekolah Tunas Bakti, Melaka (STB) again last saturday. This is my 2nd trip back to STB, and the feeling of getting back there is so fun... OK, STB is a rehabilitation sch for problematic gals... They have to undergo certain period of time inside there till the show good behaviour, then they will be released. Hmmm... the rules applied on them are too strict, jz to train them to be in good manner. But some rules are jz quite unreasonable... Hey, they are humans too, jz tat they had committed a small mistake... So, we were there to educate and motivate them, not to let go of themselves... In fact, they are actually strong inside, with strong will and hope tat they ll b released very soon. I started to hate the society tat using another type of view to look at them... Mistake, every1 does! So, don jz assume some1's bad if they did something wrong jz ONCE! Fair? Y shud we critise on others when we r not tat perfect after all...? It wuz a sad farewell... My partners and i were surrounded by them, they were singing farewell song, and tears fell from their cheeks... I forced myself, i held it, my tears stucked inside... luckily... "We are so lucky" - think of this quote...

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These coming few days, i ll try my best to give out the best commitment to the lion dance troupe... Mz make sure i get everything ready b4 departing back to hometown... Hmmm... is an enjoyment, not a stress-activity... Stress is a consequence of thinking problem, if i can mange well my thinking, my life ll b well-organised, thus, free from stress... Think about it...~

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Well, blogging is a way to express wat's inside u (don't judge a book by its cover)... I personally don't think tat blogging is a way to make people pity or sympathy of u, tat's stupid perception... If some1 means to tell u so, ignore him... Tat's not da way... ~Think about it~

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K... gotta get back to my tutorial class now... pls enlighten my thinking wid da questions i posted... (~think~)

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Love, henzzZ

Busy loR...

Hmmm... Din blog a few days oledi... Back to my busy life again... but only for these coming few days.. i m quite glad tat, my busy life din enter into me in such a hurry, but slowly... Nevertheless, none of u guys ll believe tat i m busy, as i m still wandering here n thr, sleeping late each day...

-15/01/08-
I wuz going for lion dance training again... In fact, it wuz quite boring yesterday. The trainers r far less than the trainees, so we as trainees were somehow neglected, squatting aside waiting for my turn... Thing change at da end of the nite, whn the trainer spent da rest of the time teaching me da tradition drum beats... Kinda confussed at 1st coz it wuz (as i mentioned b4) quite different from wad i learnt previously... I'll b soon sent to sifu to master da whole set of drum beats... which 2 me is a very golden opportunity...

At the end of the training, there wuz this small meeting regarding da division of each member into their duties throughout da year... I wuz asked wad i prefer to play... N i chose lion head n oso drumer of coz... i m no more da lion tail in the past. From tat very moment after i chose lion head, i wuz told tat i ll b representing UM in any future competition, so fully commitment is needed... crap~ give me sometimes plz, i nit to adapt myself slowly wid it (but i never take it as a pressure)... i ll do my best n do wad i can...

I never took all this things as a pressure o wad... i started to enjoy it once i can manage my time well... i m so glad tat seniors r so considerate, i m even allowed to be excused if i m busy or having my test week... Everything is juz in my hands, depend on how i wanna it to b... i've used my wisdom to arrange myself, arranging myself as how i like myself to b... then i ll enjoy being myself, not pressurizing myself....

-16/01/08-
Marianne wuz having her operation 2day... Honestly, i wuz quite worried bout her da previous nite, till i cant reli sleep well. She sms me once she wuz out from the operation theatre, n everything is so ok, jz tat her head wuz still bleeding... so i pray 4 her... n i feel so glad! Hope she'll b able 2 b back to faculty soon~

Hero! I went to donate my blood 2day... my 2nd time in my life... my 1st 1 ll b back in June 2006 when i wuz donor + organiser, helping blood bank tat time... This time it wuz held at UM, n more than 1000 donors participated tis time... "Donate Blood Save Life"... I din feel da nervousness anymore compared to the 1st time... Relax only~ The very 1st moment when i entered da donation hall, da 1st thing tat i saw wuz, a Malay gal fainted! OMG! But i jz pretend to b chill... I wuz seated at da back of da hall, lying down waiting for da nurse to pump my blood~ N i wuz asked as well to donate another 1ml of my dear blood for a research... Wad research is tat? The research is to determine whether normal people's DNA differs from those who have mentally depressed... I m so happy, coz my sample of blood served as normal people's... hehe...

I wuz entitled a lucky draw as a blood donor... n guess wad i get...? ipod? PS2? Compaq laptop? No no no... A t-shirt wid such wordings printed :

"I DONATED MY BLOOD TO
NBD 07/08
ALL I GET IS THIS T-SHIRT"

It's a white t-shirt, n i reli like it... I mean, to me da wordings r so cool, rite? hehe~ at least i can have another extra t-shirt...

Nite time, i attended CLE meeting again as part of da preparation b4 goin to Malacca tis sat to educate in a rehabilitation gal sch... Tis time ll b my 2nd time visiting n educating them... It'll b another challenging activity tis time... So, i wuz quite concentrate in da meeting 2nite... i wuz asked to handle a whole slot by myself, so preparation indeed important...!

Coming up days ll b very pack, but as usual, i ll still spare a lot of free time 4 myself... i ll make myself da happiest HENRY, so tat i ll b able to cheer others... My aim in my life is to make sure my frens around me ("around" din mean tat only those frens who are near to me)... Same, we all r having more n more things to handle, n not to forget our studies as well... but everything is depends on u, how u wanna it to b... When u r emotionally or mentally affected which make u feel stress n pressured, then u wont b able to concentrate to manage ur things... Oways put ur mindset da most confidence, n wipe off all da affection of mental n emotion... U can make it jz as how i can make it....

I'll b pack wid da following stuff tis coming days :
1. Torts Law Presentation - Next Monday
2. Torts Law Test (10%) - Next Tuesday
3. Interview for JawatanKuasa Orientasi (JKO) - This Friday
4. CLE meeting - This Friday
5. CLE Trip to Malacca Sekolah Tunas Bakti (STB) - This Saturday
6. Lion Dance Practice - Every Night

So jz hope tat i can do it, jz like how i hope u guys can do it!
P/s : Thanks a lot 2 those who care me so much especially jai, i m fine now...

Love, henzzZ

Back 2 Lion Dance...

Nice Lion Heads rite?

Hmmm... I wuz forced 2 wake up early tis morning despite i cant sleep 4 da whole nite, thinking of my di's problem... I've 2 help in da lion dance competition organised as a public competition in KL... It's a Tradition Lion Dance Competition... Bout 19 troupes were joining as participants... n we, represented UM wuz da 2nd team... Quite rush tis morning, n i wuz unable 2take my breakfast which as a consequence, i m having gastric now...

I wuz impressed by da high standard of da troupes from all over da KL... Hard 2 imagine rite, a young kid which i believe not even pass his 10th birthday played drum without a miss!!! N his partners playing da simba, not even entered secondary sch as well~ Other troupes not bad too, da lion heads r so energetic... every movement swing in shape... marvellous~

Later... we were brought to a si fu (master) of lion dance in KL... Wow, 1st time in my life... i entered a room full wid lion heads... sifu is 1 of da famous lion maker~ I took a few pics of his place... His lions r so strong n thick, but not heavy at all... N i reli surprised to c so many decorations, which in my life, i never think of it at all...

We spent our whole afternoon there... talking wid sifu... da whole way back 2KL wuz a tiring 1... I wuz asleep whole way back in da car... I wuz reli exhausted... n i started 2 feel da upset in my stomach... i wuz on bed since i wuz back to college (hostel)... like an unconscious victim... wad i reli nit wuz a good rest, without any interuption... but i ended up waking up to answer so many crank calls~ even from some1 i nvr ever think of... Ubong's husband...

My gastric worsen, n i cant even attend da buddy meet dinner, which actually very important...
huh.. i m reli soli to my buddy seniors... but i noe they ll understand me geh... hope they all enjoyed da dinner lor... Buddy system is indeed a very good system tat build up da relationship among juniors n seniors, helping each other...

Thanks 2 chew, my room mate, who made a hot milk 4 me, my stomach is somehow better now... Of coz not 2 forget Iggy n Gerard, who kept on offered me biscuits... hehe... i'm lucky, 2 have such a caring frens around me... thanks 2 them...

Hmmmm.... -Now- my mood is kinda better compared 2 yesterday nite, which wuz like a deep shit 4 me... hmmm... it's bcoz my jai's feeling better too... Jz hope we ll b able 2 continue sharing each other's happenings... Kinda touched by his words...

love, henzzZ (i'm back)...

Huh...

-11/01/08-

I'm back to my "normal" life AGAIN! I m reli spending too much... I've been to Klang, for its best Bak Kut Teh... Hmmm... reli not bad man! Long time din eat BABI... soli~not halal... Thanks to Wen Yee (my course mate), who brought us to da famous Bak Kut Teh... Quite suffering in UM, all food served in halal... Yea, i m not tat like of babi lar, but if reli wan me 2 skip it 4 so long, i reli not tat tahan lar...

Hmmm... after tat, my day continued in Sunway Pyramid, whr i accidentally met Lii Chyuan... He's naughty!!! He PAK TO eh... guess wid who? hehe... Shopping shopping shopping n i ended up in Midvalley as my last destination... Back to hostel wid a pair of Adidas shoes... for my chinese new year...


-12/01/08-
I wuz out again! Pavillion! New shopping World~ I went there b4... few months back... Hmmm... i wuz standing outside J Co, queueing up for more than half an hour for 2 dozens of donuts... hmmmm.... reli nice wor... da donuts r in so many flavours... n da bun is so soft!
Then, steamboat again! Long time din go for steamboat oledi in KL... quite happy can sit wid frens, chit chatting, n laughing there... eating quite a lot this time...

-Now-
I'm kinda sad after reading my di's blog... He's not in a happy mood now... I started to feel sad n useless. I m no more da Henry tat i reli trust... I m no more da Henry tat can bring happiness to every1 around me... Not even to my room mates, frenz bside me, not 2 forget frenz far back in Miri... I've tried to guide n give some advices, but i m failed~ SOLI~

Love? No more... i shud replace it wid SAD...
Sad, henzzZ

I don't dare anymore~

Huh... Kinda surprise wid sum of my frens... Not only tat i m in deep shit mood recently but sum other frens... Jz by a short msn chatting wid them, n i found out tat those r far away from family n close frens r reli in deep shit mood as me... Tat's y -I don't dare anymore- to pull down my face... I feel like it's my duty to cheer up my frens now... Don worry, i m fine... ^^

Soli if i offended any1, but i juz wanna voice tis out as a sharing~ Huh... Since da 1st Jan till now, when i start to move in tis new room, i reli kinda annoyed wid da religion "singing" 5 times a day... da speakers r somehow directly focus into my room... Everyday, without missing each time, i ll find myself n my room mates as well, ANNOYED!!! Actually i m ok wid tat "singing" lar, jz tat... ... ... it's too loud tis time, comparing to last year! N i m pretty sure wid wad i'll request as my b'day present... EAR PLUCKS!!! plz...

Court case runs smoothly... So far, we still on da winning side... Jz hope tat the saying of Chinese, "Heaven has eyes" is true... n indeed, i believe so~ Let's pray 4 me, n my family~ may us b strong 2 face all of our difficulties... a family which includes my didi~

Love, henzzZ

Hmmm....

I cant think of a title 2 represent my feeling 2day... it's kinda a mixture of ups n downs 2day... without realising it, 2day has come 2its end... there r many things trying 2 stuck into my brain, but there's no more empty space 4 those unattended things...

Man, kinda shocked of wad my hostel master told me tis very morning... The story began...

"You have to move out from the college(hostel)!"... Tat's da thing he said to me when i met him early morning... He din even ask 4 da reason y i din attend da meet wid College Master on 31st Dec... Then i took out my courage, i talked n explained 2 him, i answered every question of his wid full of confidence... It wuz then he finally said, "OK, you may stay..." phew...

I'm not feeling well 2day... I've stomach upset... I went to toilet 4 a few times edi... N i dun understand y da same thing happen 2 my family in Miri... coincidently...? Jz hope every1 of us can recover asap... Kinda worry of them... hmmm...

Dad's court case kinda goin on well 2day... there r few more days 2 go... hopefully it can run smoothly in these following days... God Bless... -speechless-