Forgotten?

Maybe, you have just forgotten the real intention of my existence. Please fully utilize me. 

The Band Perry - If I Die Young

And yeah if I die young.

Taio Cruz - Dynamite (Int'l Version)

So, why am I posting this song here? Simply to share something I like with my readers, if any.

His story!

"So, I ended up here." This was the phrase he told me. And I deeply felt his sadness. He was below 18 when he was dragged into the cell, together with a few others. And, "What is your case?", he answered, "302." For most of the law students, if not all, they will know what it means by 302. So basically it means, murder. He has been in the cell for months, since early of the year, waiting for the case to be tried in the High Court. 

Did he really murder that person? I am not sure. So his story begins...

"I was once put into the prison over an offence. I have a girlfriend before I was put into the gallows. During that period of time, she went to be with another guy (the deceased). Soon after I was released, she came back to me again. We went on well and we were planning to get married. Things started to become worse then. The deceased started to spread rumours that my girlfriend was not a clean girl anymore, she was a cheap stock and she slept with him. It sounded so insulting. I was really damn angry at the deceased. He never stopped to spread the rumours around. I can't really take it anymore. I don't like when people talking about her like that. I have a friend, named Jimmy. All this while, out of my knowledge, Jimmy has this hidden intention of killing the deceased. They have a real bad relation between one and another. Jimmy took this opportunity the actualized his intention of killing the deceased. So, Jimmy kept on asking me to find the deceased to teach him a lesson. Basically it means to give him some punches. That was my intention, I did not intend to kill him at all. So, I looked for a few friends, and together with Jimmy, we went to look for this guy. Upon seeing him, we threw him with few punches. We did not realize that Jimmy has pulled out a rope or something, and then strangled the deceased. The deceased collapsed and died. We were shocked. As we were still young, we really did not know what to do. We put the deceased into the car and then sent it off for disposal. We were blocked by the police on our way. And we were later remanded and now we are waiting for our case to be heard in the High Court. We have no intention to murder him at all, only Jimmy. How can we all being ended up here over something we are not intended to happen?" 

Quite a sad story I should say. What is the guilt of being framed by someone to commit something which you never intended to happen? Who are there to help him and his friends? Everyone does mistake, we are just lucky that our mistakes have not reached the level of that seriousness. So we are still free outside here, we enjoyed full liberty which we claimed too be too little. Appreciate what we have today, and help the less fortunate ones. There are more stories behind that wall, that most of us have not aware of at all. Do not close yourself in your own world without caring what happens outside you. Everyone of us, is just interconnected. 

Everyone of us, is just interconnected.

And what's yours?

Have been a busy week - with academic, school and Gakkai works. And when I finally able to get enough rest (at least 5 hours), I fell sick. Now I am in the process of recovery. And then I will be busy once again until I finally get to go back home for the study week. That is basically my life. 

Yeah, now is the 7th day of the month. And 3 more days to go on the completion of the Mentor and Disciple Memorial Hall in Malaysia (Wisma Kebudayaan Soka Gakkai Malaysia). Talks have been going around to share with members about the importance or rather the significance of the establishment. It is to ensure that the spirit of the mentor and disciple will continue to flow from generation to generation. It is indeed an important project of SGM. 

Sensei, today, is still with us. We still have the great chance to strive side by side with him. But how many of us actually appreciate this golden chance? Or we are actually taking it for granted. Yes, we are. How many of us actually really get to study Sensei really well and really understand the spirit of mentor and disciple? Do we? 

The whole structure of the Hall will remain as a Hall if we fail to inherit the spirit, if we fail to incorporate the really spirit into our lives. If that is the case, the whole structure will become meaningless. Things will remain as things. No purpose. So, it is us who make the things come into life. We are suppose to first to incorporate the spirit into our daily life and strive like our Sensei. That's what I called as building your own Mentor and Disciple Memorial Hall in yourself. That's the ultimate aim, for each of us. 

Choice or is it a chance?

Lately I kept on recalled on a few messages (SMS) that I've received before. Now, this was a message regarding happiness. Just to share on its gist. It simply wants to say that, being happy is a choice, not a chance. Don't get it? Alright, it says happiness is our choice, whether we want to choose to be happy or not, is totally up to us. No one can actually take away happiness from us. This is what we called as indestructible happiness. We do not have to wait for a chance to be happy, as happiness is not happens by chance. So now, it is totally up to you, you decide on your own life, you create your own eternal happiness. 

Arrogance vs Confidence

I read a short essay from this book Buddhism In A New Light, and there is this essay about the differences between arrogance and confidence. Most of the time we have mistaken the confidence as arrogance and vice versa. There are a few points which I think the essay has highlighted in regards to this issue:

1. Judging one's self-worth by comparison with others' is arrogance.

2. Arrogance is egotism, confidence is altruism.

3. Confidence is to appreciate oneself.

4. The arrogant are insecure and needy.

5. Absolute superiority is a dangerous illusion.

Arrogance results from our inclination to judge our self-worth by comparison with others. Genuinely confident people, on the other hand, are aware of their intrinsic personal strength or merit. The most reliable source of confidence is our innate Buddha nature. 

Confidence makes genuine altruism possible. Confident people are free to care others and fight for their happiness with the hope that it exceeds even their own.

The essential difference between arrogance and confidence is one of quality and origin. Arrogance is needy and dependent on others, derived from comparison with the external. Confidence is free and independent of others, found and cultivated in the self. 

The points highlighted above will be helpful enough for us to reflect and evaluate ourselves, whether we are a person of confidence or arrogance. 

Love vs Friend

I remembered receiving this message from my junior about a year ago and I keep this message long enough in my mobile phone till now. I pretty like the message itself, it sounds true in certain sense. It is about love and friendship. 

"One day, Love and Friend go out together for a walk. Suddenly, Love falls into a deep river. Why? It is because Love is blind. So, Friend quickly jumps into the river to save Love. Why? This is because a good Friend will always be there whenever, wherever and whatever, we need. However, Friend can't find Love. Why? And this is because Love is too gentle, easy to lose when we do not take care of it. Finally, Friend gives up and leaves Love there. Why? Because, Friend will leave and ignore us if we do not know how to appreciate them."

It is beautifully written, and as I said, it is true in a way.  

Stories

It is about reading cases, the law cases. Puan Asnida mentioned a very strong statement today, which touches my heart. I really, later, took some times to really think of that. I have been reading cases the very first day I entered the law school. I faced difficulty in understanding the language used, the contents, the facts and the laws. I struggled to really get myself to finish reading cases just to face tutorials. As time passed, it has been just a habit - reading cases just for the sake of tutorials. Sometimes, cases are interesting in the sense that they are stories that we found funny or ridiculous. We laughed at certain parties involved for their stupidity that get them into trouble. Wait a minute, think of this. Do they really like to get themselves into all these shits? Are they happy when they are being sued? Are they fine with paying lots to lawyers just to gain something from the others, leaving the others suffered the losses? 

No, they don't, at least most of them not. Puan said, story - it is his or her story. They suffered and that's why they need legal assistance. They faced with all these difficulties and they pay to get their problems settled in a proper manner. Lawyers charged them excessively. We read their cases, we do not appreciate the problems that they are facing with. That shouldn't be the way, right? We should be more understanding, putting ourselves into their shoes. That's at least what I prefer to be in the future - that's at least how I defined myself as a good legal practitioner. That's what I want myself to be. 

People

So is about people. Not just ordinary people. People that have left footprints in my life. People that have gone in and the out of my life, time to time. It has been something that I have been facing for these 20 plus years, but why am I still not get used to it. Nonetheless, I appreciated deeply and sincerely in my heart those who have once with me. I treasured this moment very much and this is something that makes my life valuable.  

Each of the person I met has left an impact in my life. I learnt the meaning of life from each encounter. And it is this every encounter that I grow, growing to become a better person, a more understanding man. From all this experience of life, I developed myself to be a human that really takes the efforts to understand the feelings of the others, to be more considerate and to respect each and everyone as human being. 

Along the way, I have caused a lot of hard feeling towards the others. Deep inside my heart, I know I am wrong,  I am at fault. The courage to say "I am sorry." is never an easy thing to do, trust me, not at all. Due to my playfulness, my naughtiness, I sowed sorrow into the life of many. I created trouble to my family members. I planted hatred towards certain persons around me. I know, I am wrong, I am sorry. I am learning real hard to transform myself.

Humans are all connected by the intangible ties that are unseen to naked eyes, but they do exist. Friends in this life are not existing without reason nor they exist coincidentally. They are destined to be our friends in this life and that we shared something in common. We are here together to learn. Each encounter, treat it as if it is the last chance we are meeting each other. So treasure that encounter and not to regret thereafter. This is the great guidance given by my Sensei (Mentor), Ikeda Sensei. I craved it in my heart. 

  

Pillow

Bought myself a new pillow few days back with the hope that I will have better sleep at night. I have not been sleeping quite well recently. I'll feel dizzy every morning when I wake up. Not really sure the reason. Just hope to have better sleep with this new pillow I bought. Also, I bought new covers for my pillow and mattress and are blue in color - yeah, I love blue. 

I have been sleeping quite late (or should I say early in the morning). And I think is time for me to really adjust back my biological clock again. Yeah, again, I think I have been saying about this all the time, especially during holidays. Lets see how it goes. Trying to sleep early is really important for good health. I won't want to die so early anyway. ^^ 

Alright, not really sure whether I will be able to do it or not, just see how it goes tonight. 

Care less and I shall be more happy

I think I have been such a busy body to get into people's life too much. And people doesn't seem to appreciate at all. It will be best if I can just mind my own business, care my own things and step out from the lives of the others. And that will make a betterment to their lives.

At the same time, those who are not related to me, just get out of my life as well. My life isn't big enough to hold you nor sustain you. Get out~

8.2 - The History and I was part of it.

When it is still fresh in my mind, I think I better put it into words in case one day I am so reckless that I really forgot about this great day – 2nd August 2010. Today, University of Malaya has acknowledged the noble contribution of my mentor – Dr. Daisaku Ikeda. He was conferred with this great Honorary Degree of Doctor of Humanities. More or less, the ceremony was attended by 200 participants from SGM – mostly leaders. Sensei was not here to receive the award. Instead, his eldest son was here to receive on behalf of him.




Few weeks before this, I was first informed by a leader – Ooi Li Ting. I was made understand that this conferral ceremony was to be kept low profile – not to be over enthusiastic over it. So, most of us were having this great joy, quietly in our hearts. We were asked as well, to really think of the significance of this event especially at this year. Later, a few prayer objectives were laid down for the big success of this event.



Dr. Boey, an academician from UM had held a special meeting to meet most of our SD members in our Region 2. In this special meet, Dr. Boey shared with us the honor of this conferment with a few Gosho passages. I deeply impressed by his way of presenting his sharing. Indeed, I should say, it was a great piece of sharing – exposing the wisdom that he possessed through his practice all this while. Dr. Boey later spoke to us on our focus in chanting which he laid down 4:

1. To chant that the whole ceremony will be smooth and great success;

2. To chant that the weather on that day will be just nice;

3. To chant that people in UM and Malaysian society will be able, through this conferment, to have a deeper understanding of sensei and SGI; and

4. To earnestly chant that we can really deepen our bond with sensei and have a fresh determination in our practice and studies.

These had become our prayer objectives from that moment onward. Each student house had later agreed to have chanting sessions – once in the morning and once in the evening, each 1 hour – to chant according to these objectives. I should say it was really a hard challenge to do so. There were times when we have a full-1-hour-session with full attendance. There were times, as well, when there was only 1 or 2. The feeling of seeing most of the housemates waking up as early as 6 in the morning to perform the Morning Prayer was so touched. The feeling of each of us was really towards the same goal, the same objective, will eventually charge the life to the fullest – and that’s what made the day even greater.



At the same time, we were told to standby. Tasks were given from time to time. Sometimes it could be some clarifications on certain matters regarding the university. Sometimes, the tasks can be difficult and at time, seemed impossible. Nevertheless, we will still try to do the best, just to ensure that the ceremony will go smooth.



Seats were actually limited. Not all can actually get into the hall – Dewan Tunku Canselor – to witness the ceremony. However, Academy M was told that we were given a little privilege where we can send in as many names as we liked, and we will be given as many as possible seats. At the end of the day, we were given about 15 seats – a few of them were students from UTAR. I can feel that most of them really chanted hard to join this ceremony. They would like to be in there to feel the joyful process of conferment – recognition of the most prestigious university in Malaysia on our beloved sensei.



“Daisaku Ikeda!” – these words were announced once and my heart pondered fast. I was touched when the word by word was read by the Vice-Chancellor, Dr. Ghauth. Deep inside my heart, I congratulated sensei. His efforts were once again, recognized, acknowledged. I pledged in my heart, “I will not leave you (the path of mentor and disciple). I will, from now onwards, to fight like you, to fight with you. I want to deeply understand the meaning of “baton” that has passed to us and that I want to be the one that grab tight of this baton and truly engage myself in the path of world peace. I will study more and deepen my understanding about you and proudly share with people, your philosophy. I will proudly tell the world that you are my mentor for life and I will take all means to explain and share with people your great efforts and contributions in making this world a better place to stay.”



I heard people asking around, posing question like how do you feel? No single word can actually describe how I feel. But that doesn’t mean that I do not have any impression or what – my deep feeling will lead me to do the right things.

Life and death

How saddening when you heard of another person that you knew, had just passed away at such a young age. Any idea of where will he/she go after this? Every religion or belief has its own say about this. Each claims to be the truth but none can really assure us with their answer. We did not hear from them after that, they did not write us letter. There is no angel coming down and tells us that, "Hey don't worry, he is alright up there". So to me, it is no longer that important as to the question where you go after you died. Most important is how you really lived when you are still alive. Mitch Albom talks about death in his novels, but mostly reflected on the life time.

A friend of mine had just left us. I can no longer hear her encouraging words, can no longer hear of her sharing of how she struggled through her life time, challenging her obstacles with full of conviction, deep faith. Nevertheless, from her, I learnt how to be strong. How to be a caring person. How to give without take. How to overcome challenges through strong faith. She will stay in my heart, as a great friend, forever till my last breath.

Home

WAS listening to Home, by Michael Buble. It is a nice song, one of my favourites. Ehem, and how I got to know this song? Yeah, I remembered. ShiWei dedicated this song to me months ago. Far away (though not as far as those who are overseas) from me beloved family members, I do miss them from time to time, especially lately. I am looking towards to be back home with them. Miss you all!

Company Law?

Company Law is just damn interesting actually. Nay, forget about the exam. I am not that nerd, studying just for exam? That's no longer my style! Getting more and more enjoy with studying law, each subject has its own interesting part - hey, not JURISPRUDENCE! I still hate dislike this paper, though. Too abstract, can't even catch what tung tung!

Company Law is quite technical, everything to do with sections and sections. All those alien terms, but thanks to Chin Ting. She has enlightened me so much that I can easily grasp the whole idea now - though, not sufficient to pass yet. Not sure why, although I can't really remember all these technical procedural and subtantive parts, I am loving this kind of law more than those abstract ones.

Still have a day to go! Just be more focus and enjoy all along the way fighting for the paper! I just know, I enjoy learning new things. So even if I failed, let it be!

Legal Aid

Cool, I kinda love this picture. This was taken by Iggy, after an interview session with Ms Jessie from the Legal Aid Centre, KL. Initially, I was expecting to have a great interview to clear my doubts regadring the legal aid services provided by them. It was a sad case. The one who supposed to be there for our interview was at court doing dock brief. So Ms Jessie was there to help us with some very simple introduction of the centre. Anyway, the interview was conducted in order for me to complete my project paper weeks ago. The whole process of writing this paper has given me more and more exposure of the legal aid services provided in Malaysia. Indirectly, the interest of getting involve in this line has grown deep inside my heart. In some way it has affected my clear picture of what I wanted to do after I graduate. Now, I should hold back my plan and see how it goes.

A Friday!

Trying hard, but nay, nothing can get into my mind. Is just like trying to fill up a leaking pail with water. I failed, slow progress. Slacking too much that I have no idea what's wrong with me. I have taken too much things into my emotional consideration, and being a bit too sensitive over little thing. I should free myself from all these, all these that can pull me down. The nearer we get to the goal, the more difficulties that will come into being to stop us? Is that the reason? Or the main factor is myself, and that's why people say, the greatest enemy is still myself?

Have not been doing well in every single matter in my life. I have declared defeated even before the start of each struggle. What's wrong again? I have no idea, I have lost the spirit to fight for my self-victory. I no longer care what are their expectations on me. I am being myself. Damn!

2 more papers to go. Just 2 more.

Life is fragile?

Saddening.
I feel sad to hear about this.
Another reminder to myself that life is short, and most of the time unpredictable. Every minute and second from now, I will keep telling myself, not to waste a single millisecond, to fully cherish every moment and every person next to me. And this will be the thing that I can leave for the persons, that have survived after me.

Uncle, don't worry. Have a good rest. You have a nice boy. He will be strong to take care of the family.

Regret?

Huh... Sometimes, when I think about it, I get more and more regret that why I did not hold tighter. I should have not let it go so easily. Regret.

Original

I have never taught him this. Really don't know where he learnt this from. Ah wei ah wei... Rude nya!

HenzzZ Photography

时间虽然不能够倒转，

但是摄影是让瞬间变成永恒的魔法。

Dreams

"It's perfectly all right for youth to cherish dreams that may seem almost too big. What we can achieve in a single lifetime is always but a fraction of what we would like to achieve. So if you start out with expectations that are too low, you may end up not accomplishing anything at all. Of course, if you make no efforts, your dreams will amount to nothing but sheer fantasy. Effort, hard work, that is the bridge that connects your dreams to reality"

-Daisaku Ikeda-

3rd year!

Yeah, I am here again. Damn, I should be doing my Project Paper, why am I here - as if I am eng eng bo tai ji jor? Never mind, I need a break. So, is time to review my whole third year in the law school. How far have I gone by now?

This has been a great year to me, though there were extreme ups and extreme downs. Both the ups and downs are mostly in the friendship that I have greatly established here with a bunch of great friends. Each single one, I cherished to the last breath of my life. Conflicts do happen, especially when we care each other too much. Nothing to be so worried about.

Studies. This is a great thing to think of. How much have I done? Being an excellent student? Is that my dream? It used to be when I was in my secondary school - particularly in Form 6, a bit kiasu that time. Entering Law School means the first episode of my life has completed, now I am writing my 2nd episode - a very different stories from the previous one. Might get shocked over the drastic changes of life in each stage. Lesser positions but greater responsibility.

If things go smooth, I will proceed to my final year soon. Am I prepared to step into the society? Just feel that I have not learnt enough yet. What are the requirements that I should have? What kind of lawyer is expected? What are the criteria for a good lawyer? I never know. This will come under my next chapter of life. Whatever it is, I will always be with my mentor, fighting for the sake of the happiness of the people, my principle for life!

Mitch Albom

Damn, his books are nice. 2 down and 2 more to go. After that is time to go back to the market to search for his other writings. Words are simple but meanings have touched deeply into every single soul of the reader's. Great!

Doomed

When you are expecting things from me with the thought that you have given me so much, you will scare me off even before I started to learn about you. That's why I never success in any relation so far. If love is about another kind of pressure, than I rather let go this commitment for the rest of my life. So, please do not kill my interest in getting into any relation.

Peak? Climax?

Having to say that, life has been increasingly getting more and more busy with school work that most of the time I have to give up a lot of other commitment. Nevertheless, school work seems to be endless. Some how I seem to in no progress at all. Is this kind of life can be considered as the peak or climax? If yes, what about the others'? How about those who have more commitment than I am.

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Weekends have been a good-bye for me now. I can no longer pick up some places and started off my journey like that. My leftover free time has been used for few simple activities - sleeping, reading novel and Face-booking (and of course, eating around). All these have been part of my life, to fill up the colour of my life, and if not, at least they help me to in one way or another, release my stress due to academic. I don't really care about my grading, just with little hope that I will pass all my semester and be able to hit everything on its deadline.

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Eating is still my habit. I love the feeling of eating together with friends. We have lots of fun joking around. Nah, the food doesn't matter actually. Just that is time to think of keeping fit. I can feel that I am starting to be rounder again (or I actually did not slim down an inch at all, never mind!). Pick the right food!

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A great quote to share as a conclusion:

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"The plane (or maybe plan) is there, just that we need a pilot!"

-Hong-

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This is a great motivation quote that you can think of when you are deciding whether you would like to go for class or not.

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yellowhen

Henry's heart

Is it normal to face the situation where you are treated so cold without any reasons? When you thought things are really over and is time for you to take the initiative to connect the bridge, you are given with no response, no call is answered, no message is replied. No idea, no idea what is this all about. First you were blamed innocently and you did not get any forgiveness on your innocence. When you think it is not worth to risk a genuine friendship due to such a matter and you have taken steps to get connected again, no one actually bothers. You will never know how it feels like unless you are the victim. The predator will really enjoy doing this.

Secret?!

I just found out that, secret is something so funny. The more we want to keep something as secret, the easier it leaks out. The best thing is, if you don't want others to know about it, then don't do it. Cheating isn't that pleasant, but keeping one's own promise is your right. What is secret then?

Problem?

If problem has not been solved from the core, it is only an avoidance. After certain period of time, it will still come back, again and again. Open up and have a great dialogue. Is not about tolerance, is about understanding - mutual understanding.

Insulting

I was sitting at a table next to a playground when a kid ran over and hid under the table. I asked him why and he answered me that he was playing hide and seek. Not long after that I saw a plump boy far away in the playground, searching for someone. I tried to move a little so that I can help to cover this little boy hiding under the table. So after quite a moment, this kid was still save under my cover.

This is the best part:

Henry: He can't see you.

Kid: Yea, you are fat and blocked me from his view!

Henry: #$%^@#$%#$@#$

Anyone, am I?!