Bye 2007, bye Mirians, bye Jaiseng~

Huh... Quite heavy yea 4 me 2 say goodbye... tat's not da word tat i reli like 2 say, not even like to feel it actually~ Hmmm... basically, this trip back 2miri wuz filled wid 2 much unexpected experiences... n of coz memoriable memories (sweet, sour, bitter, spicy)... all these turned to b da factors tat make me don feel like goin bak...

Erm... supposedly, i shud b enjoying my sem break wid my own lifestyle... but tat's not wad happen afterall... i ended up, spending most of my holiday preparing my dad's court case wid our counsel... cant reli believe tis, paying da counsel, yet i nit to help in da preparation~ No choice, da amount tat da stupid plaintiff claims is reli too big! i have to help out, or else, i ll b ended up eating west east wind (xi pei fung)... but kinda impressed of myself, i did help out A LOT!!! ^^

As a "tradition", my dear boy sing yuang wuz here wid me again tis holiday... It wuz a long time ago since i last met him, which wuz end of 2006... grown up boy! spending most of my early sem break wid him, visiting each single fren tat he wan2... sharing is good, we did share our happenings throughout da whole year... My life in UM, his life in Rosli Dhobi... hehe.... but, long holiday turned out 2 b a fast passing event, he went back 2 sibu after a-month-stay wid me...

Hmmm... my last few days in Miri is coloured by jai seng, who spent his golden time wid me... I think it's 1 of da main factors, y i feel so heavy heart now! honestly, he's da 1 tat i can trust wid my fully heart... from his sincerity towards frens, i noe tat i won misjudged him... Reliable n trustworthy, i noe tat he'll b able to b a good quartermaster... support u~

30 ++ hours more~ i m off soon... jz a blink of eyes, 36 days r coming to its end... few more days later, all of us ll get back 2our position again, as a student, who nit 2 face a lot of difficulty especially when we nit 2 arrange our time to cape wid academic as well as co-cur activities... Guys, put it as a challenge which all of us nit to face in order to grow up, grow to b a fully matured human being... Don take it as a pressure, which most definitely ll ruin all ur life~ even ur future... Take a deep breathe n calm ur mind down b4 thinking n planning... There's nothing in tis world tat is impossible to b settled~

All da Best 2 u guys, especially those who-you-understand-who-you-are...
Love, henzzZ

Looking forward...

2007... coming to its end... n i m not even noe wad i had done throughout da yr... i lost my goal, n i lost my path as well... yea, i have entered my law sch, n i passed my exam... but i still feel tat i din noe well bout my future... these few days, i m kinda stress up wid my own things (i.e. family problems)... i m out of way to settle them... luckily there r more outside activities 4 me to do, jz to let go my stress inside me...

I dunno, n i cant find any1 to release n share my darkness! i m no more da henry tat i reli noe... Da smile on my face, izzit reli comes from my heart? huh... i m reli tired of it, enuff of pretending, making me hating myself more n more...

soon, i m gonna bak to my uni's life... how's it gonna b tis time? Da same as it wuz? huh... There r many things tat i cant even let go here... frens, rc, family, life... tat r wad oways in mind when i m away from them... but, m i in theirs too? sumtimes, i m kinda feel tat i m a bit stupid! my sacrification for them r not as worthy as i tot... I don hope to b treated da same as how i treat them, but jz at least they appreciate wad i have done... huh... i m not doin things 4 myself, m i?

New chrc board wuz out few days ago after a-whole-day-long consideration... do hope tat we din do da wrong decision~ we trust on them! do bring the unit towards a brighter future! it's 4 da next generation...