Bye 2007, bye Mirians, bye Jaiseng~

Huh... Quite heavy yea 4 me 2 say goodbye... tat's not da word tat i reli like 2 say, not even like to feel it actually~ Hmmm... basically, this trip back 2miri wuz filled wid 2 much unexpected experiences... n of coz memoriable memories (sweet, sour, bitter, spicy)... all these turned to b da factors tat make me don feel like goin bak...

Erm... supposedly, i shud b enjoying my sem break wid my own lifestyle... but tat's not wad happen afterall... i ended up, spending most of my holiday preparing my dad's court case wid our counsel... cant reli believe tis, paying da counsel, yet i nit to help in da preparation~ No choice, da amount tat da stupid plaintiff claims is reli too big! i have to help out, or else, i ll b ended up eating west east wind (xi pei fung)... but kinda impressed of myself, i did help out A LOT!!! ^^

As a "tradition", my dear boy sing yuang wuz here wid me again tis holiday... It wuz a long time ago since i last met him, which wuz end of 2006... grown up boy! spending most of my early sem break wid him, visiting each single fren tat he wan2... sharing is good, we did share our happenings throughout da whole year... My life in UM, his life in Rosli Dhobi... hehe.... but, long holiday turned out 2 b a fast passing event, he went back 2 sibu after a-month-stay wid me...

Hmmm... my last few days in Miri is coloured by jai seng, who spent his golden time wid me... I think it's 1 of da main factors, y i feel so heavy heart now! honestly, he's da 1 tat i can trust wid my fully heart... from his sincerity towards frens, i noe tat i won misjudged him... Reliable n trustworthy, i noe tat he'll b able to b a good quartermaster... support u~

30 ++ hours more~ i m off soon... jz a blink of eyes, 36 days r coming to its end... few more days later, all of us ll get back 2our position again, as a student, who nit 2 face a lot of difficulty especially when we nit 2 arrange our time to cape wid academic as well as co-cur activities... Guys, put it as a challenge which all of us nit to face in order to grow up, grow to b a fully matured human being... Don take it as a pressure, which most definitely ll ruin all ur life~ even ur future... Take a deep breathe n calm ur mind down b4 thinking n planning... There's nothing in tis world tat is impossible to b settled~

All da Best 2 u guys, especially those who-you-understand-who-you-are...
Love, henzzZ

Looking forward...

2007... coming to its end... n i m not even noe wad i had done throughout da yr... i lost my goal, n i lost my path as well... yea, i have entered my law sch, n i passed my exam... but i still feel tat i din noe well bout my future... these few days, i m kinda stress up wid my own things (i.e. family problems)... i m out of way to settle them... luckily there r more outside activities 4 me to do, jz to let go my stress inside me...

I dunno, n i cant find any1 to release n share my darkness! i m no more da henry tat i reli noe... Da smile on my face, izzit reli comes from my heart? huh... i m reli tired of it, enuff of pretending, making me hating myself more n more...

soon, i m gonna bak to my uni's life... how's it gonna b tis time? Da same as it wuz? huh... There r many things tat i cant even let go here... frens, rc, family, life... tat r wad oways in mind when i m away from them... but, m i in theirs too? sumtimes, i m kinda feel tat i m a bit stupid! my sacrification for them r not as worthy as i tot... I don hope to b treated da same as how i treat them, but jz at least they appreciate wad i have done... huh... i m not doin things 4 myself, m i?

New chrc board wuz out few days ago after a-whole-day-long consideration... do hope tat we din do da wrong decision~ we trust on them! do bring the unit towards a brighter future! it's 4 da next generation...

Stressful inside...

How's my appearance? M i look sad? Nope... i seem to b happy all da time. but inside, i m reli quite stress... Many things squeeze in, n i m not ready yet. From time to time, i prefer doin things last minute. But in uni life, ur last minute ll suddenly add on wid some more last minute's things! then this is da time whn the feeling of STRESS comes in... I seldom face wid stress, thus, i dunno how 2 cope wid it. I m no longer as independent as b4.

Final exam coming soon, n tests n assignments never leave me alone... Reli duno whether i m able 2 cope wid them o not...? Every1 study study n manage to submit their works o time. But 4 me, i m oways last minute, n rushing 2 submit things reli juz on due time... "Superior"? Is LAZINESS!

KL life...

It's my 3rd month here, n i still enjoying my days... Sometimes, it's quite busy, sumtimes i feel damn free... 2day, at last, i make my effort to meet Ah Ma, a special lady in my life... haha... It has been a long time since i last met her... few months ago... still da old same her, juz a bit fatter... haha... There're a lot of my local frens around, but i feel sorry tat i can't reli arrange my time to meet wid them... like annie lau n tara... Hopefully after they back from Miri, i can arrange my time to meet them...

Many of my batch mates busy everyday... Everytime i look at them, they are definitely holding few cases n reading them... At the beginning, it did give me pressure... but now, i'm reli immune to it edi, NO FEAR! ... Dunno lor, to me, uni life not suppose to b like tat. In uni life, i think we shud learn how to arrange n divide our own time, there muz b some relax n chill hours, instead of stucking the head in the books n law cases...

My days here, reli make me feel i have grown up. i learnt about human. Although we r from M'sia, they are still different faces n characteristics... Some are reli horror to ur knowledge!!! Avoiding those evils ll b the best way, so i never regret not to even look at them! Their cocky faces, make me feel homesick...

But, not every1 turns out 2b so negative... There are still a lot angels surroundings me... 1st is my senior kor kor... He's the person who make me feel warmth enuff, reducing my homesick... He brought me out to chill n relax, letting me knowing wad're outside the box! Besides, he oso help me in my studies lor, which i feel struggle sometimes... Feel damn lucky to haf such a good bro lo, feel damn sweet gt ppl sayang... hehe... C the pic, tat's my koko...