And it continues to ring in my mind.

And it continues to ring in my mind, it simply reminds me about how sweet you are. Thanks for sharing it with me.

It's Auburn 

And J.R. 

'Cause I'm all about him, him, him, him, him 

And he's all about me, me, me, me, me 

And we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang 

About nobody-e-e-e 

'Cause I'm all about him, him, him, him, him 

And he's all about me, me, me, me, me 

And we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang 

About nobody-e-e-e 

Well, had him shooting for me like a ball team 

Every guy was a knock out, Don King 

But not none of 'em had smarts, that's my thing 

It's not enough to have balls, Spalding, ha 

One day by Starbucks 

I bumped into a guy rocking black Chucks 

He said "Excuse me beautiful," I said, "Aww, shucks" 

And then he asked, "Well, ay, wanna grab lunch?" 

Never ever ever met a guy so fly 

Got me hooked like apple pie, I 

Think I'm falling and I don't know why 

But I won't fight these butterflies 

'Cause I'm all about him, him, him, him, him 

And he's all about me, me, me, me, me 

And we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang 

About nobody-e-e-e 

'Cause I'm all about him, him, him, him, him 

And he's all about me, me, me, me, me 

And we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang 

About nobody-e-e-e 

And I swear what we have is just super cool 

The way he's always in my head like a Bluetooth 

I got a text from him, he said come through 

Told me that he wants to kick it, Kung Fu 

Don't do nothing much at all 

Just we and his boys watching football 

He asked for a kiss (Muah) So I gave him two 

He said, "Well, thankyou, baby," I said, "You're welcome, boo" 

Never ever ever met a guy so fly 

Got me hooked like apple pie, I 

Think I'm falling and I don't know why 

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But I won't fight these butterflies 

'Cause I'm all about him, him, him, him, him 

And he's all about me, me, me, me, me 

And we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang 

About nobody-e-e-e 

'Cause I'm all about him, him, him, him, him 

And he's all about me, me, me, me, me 

And we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang 

About nobody-e-e-e 

No, I don't need no fancy cars 

And I don't need no diamond rings 

My baby is all I need and more 

'Cause I don't need those extra things 

It's not about you (Oh-oh-oh-oh) (It's not about you) 

It's not about them (Oh-oh-oh-oh) (It's not about them) 

It's all about me (Oh-oh-oh-oh) (It's all about me) 

And it's all about him (Oh-oh-oh-oh) (It's all about him) 

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah 

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah 

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah 

Said it's all about him, yeah 

'Cause I'm all about him, him, him, him, him 

And he's all about me, me, me, me, me 

And we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang 

About nobody-e-e-e 

'Cause I'm all about him, him, him, him, him 

And he's all about me, me, me, me, me 

And we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang 

About nobody-e-e-e 

(Oh-oh-oh-oh) 'Cause I'm all about him 

(Oh-oh-oh-oh) 'Cause I'm all about him 

(Oh-oh-oh-oh) I'm all about him 

(Oh-oh-oh-oh) And we don't give a dang, dang, dang 

(Oh-oh-oh-oh) It's all about you 

(Oh-oh-oh-oh) It's all about you, boy 

(Oh-oh-oh-oh) It's all about you 

(Oh-oh-oh-oh)

 Love you.

Betray

Just always bear in mind, betray is for once and forever. Once you have breached the trust, do not think that you can simply expect the one that you have betrayed to just wipe off the pain and fear you have planted in his soul. 

Don't try your luck to mend something that you have damaged. Don't even think of blaming the one for not being able to forgive you. Pretty obvious that one can't trust you again after much harms that you have made. You can never expect someone to simply forgive you after you have come forth and give him a hard slap on his face. You can never ask the one to act as if there is no past. The dark past is there. Whatever it is, do think of stopping whatever you are doing at the back. The more you do, the more you cracked the damage. 

Let off.

What has gone wrong?

I feel the pain but I never know why. It gets worse and worse and I still do not know the reason. Until I found out that, I have grabbed too tight - subconsciously.

I decided. To let go might be the best way.

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172 New Year’s Gosho

HAVE received a hundred slabs of steamed rice cake and a basket of fruit. New Year’s Day marks the first day, the first month, the beginning of the year, and the start of spring.1 A person who celebrates this day will accumulate virtue and be loved by all, just as the moon becomes full gradually, moving from west to east,2 and as the sun shines more brightly, traveling from east to west. First of all, as to the question of where exactly hell and the Buddha exist, one sutra states that hell exists underground, and another sutra says that the Buddha is in the west. Closer examination, however, reveals that both exist in our five-foot body. This must be true because hell is in the heart of a person who inwardly despises his father and disregards his mother. It is like  the lotus seed, which contains both blossom and fruit. In the same way, the Buddha dwells within our hearts. For example, flint has the potential to produce fire, and gems have intrinsic value. We ordinary people can see neither our own eyelashes, which are so close, nor the heavens in the distance. Likewise, we do not see that the Buddha exists in our own hearts. You may question how it is that the Buddha can reside within us when our bodies, originating from our parents’ sperm and blood, are the source of the three poisons and the seat of carnal desires. But repeated consideration assures us of the truth of this matter. The pure lotus flower blooms out of the muddy pond, the fragrant sandalwood grows from the soil, the graceful cherry blossoms come forth from trees, the beautiful Yang Kuei-fei was born of a woman of low station, and the moon rises from behind the mountains to shed light on them. Misfortune comes from one’s mouth and ruins one, but fortune comes from one’s heart and makes one worthy of respect. The sincerity of making offerings to the Lotus Sutra at the beginning of the New Year is like cherry blossoms blooming from trees, a lotus unfolding in a pond, sandalwood leaves unfurling on the Snow Mountains, or the moon beginning to rise. Now Japan, in becoming an enemy of the Lotus Sutra, has invited misfortune from a thousand miles away. In light of this, it is clear that those who now believe in the Lotus Sutra will gather fortune from ten thousand miles away. The shadow is cast by the form, and just as the shadow follows the form, misfortune will befall the country whose people are hostile to the Lotus Sutra. The believers in the Lotus Sutra, on the other hand, are like the sandalwood with its fragrance. I will write you again. 

Nichiren

The fifth day of the first month

Reply to the wife of Omosu

Background

This letter was written to the wife of Omosu in acknowledgment of offerings Nichiren Daishonin had received from her at the beginning of the year. The precise year of this letter, however, remains unclear. Omosu derived his name from that of the area in which his estate was located, Omosu Village in Fuji District of Suruga Province. His full name was Ishikawa Shimbei Yoshisuke. His wife was the elder sister of Nanjo Tokimitsu. In this letter, Nichiren Daishonin explains the operative principle of the Ten Worlds in a simple, poetic way, revealing that both Buddhahood and hell exist within the life of each individual. A person with a heart full of hatred experiences the world of hell; a person with faith in the Lotus Sutra experiences the world of Buddhahood. 

Notes

1. According to the Japanese lunar calendar, spring begins with the first month— that is, on New Year’s Day by that calendar, which on the Gregorian calendar falls somewhere between January  and February .

2. This refers to the fact that the new moon is first seen in the west just after sunset. On successive nights, as  the moon grows fuller, it appears to have moved a little farther toward the east.

The Writing of Nichiren Daishoin - page 1137 - 1138.