I think I have been such a busy body to get into people's life too much. And people doesn't seem to appreciate at all. It will be best if I can just mind my own business, care my own things and step out from the lives of the others. And that will make a betterment to their lives.
At the same time, those who are not related to me, just get out of my life as well. My life isn't big enough to hold you nor sustain you. Get out~
Friday, August 20, 2010
Monday, August 2, 2010
8.2 - The History and I was part of it.
When it is still fresh in my mind, I think I better put it into words in case one day I am so reckless that I really forgot about this great day – 2nd August 2010. Today, University of Malaya has acknowledged the noble contribution of my mentor – Dr. Daisaku Ikeda. He was conferred with this great Honorary Degree of Doctor of Humanities. More or less, the ceremony was attended by 200 participants from SGM – mostly leaders. Sensei was not here to receive the award. Instead, his eldest son was here to receive on behalf of him.
Few weeks before this, I was first informed by a leader – Ooi Li Ting. I was made understand that this conferral ceremony was to be kept low profile – not to be over enthusiastic over it. So, most of us were having this great joy, quietly in our hearts. We were asked as well, to really think of the significance of this event especially at this year. Later, a few prayer objectives were laid down for the big success of this event.
Dr. Boey, an academician from UM had held a special meeting to meet most of our SD members in our Region 2. In this special meet, Dr. Boey shared with us the honor of this conferment with a few Gosho passages. I deeply impressed by his way of presenting his sharing. Indeed, I should say, it was a great piece of sharing – exposing the wisdom that he possessed through his practice all this while. Dr. Boey later spoke to us on our focus in chanting which he laid down 4:
1. To chant that the whole ceremony will be smooth and great success;
2. To chant that the weather on that day will be just nice;
3. To chant that people in UM and Malaysian society will be able, through this conferment, to have a deeper understanding of sensei and SGI; and
4. To earnestly chant that we can really deepen our bond with sensei and have a fresh determination in our practice and studies.
These had become our prayer objectives from that moment onward. Each student house had later agreed to have chanting sessions – once in the morning and once in the evening, each 1 hour – to chant according to these objectives. I should say it was really a hard challenge to do so. There were times when we have a full-1-hour-session with full attendance. There were times, as well, when there was only 1 or 2. The feeling of seeing most of the housemates waking up as early as 6 in the morning to perform the Morning Prayer was so touched. The feeling of each of us was really towards the same goal, the same objective, will eventually charge the life to the fullest – and that’s what made the day even greater.
At the same time, we were told to standby. Tasks were given from time to time. Sometimes it could be some clarifications on certain matters regarding the university. Sometimes, the tasks can be difficult and at time, seemed impossible. Nevertheless, we will still try to do the best, just to ensure that the ceremony will go smooth.
Seats were actually limited. Not all can actually get into the hall – Dewan Tunku Canselor – to witness the ceremony. However, Academy M was told that we were given a little privilege where we can send in as many names as we liked, and we will be given as many as possible seats. At the end of the day, we were given about 15 seats – a few of them were students from UTAR. I can feel that most of them really chanted hard to join this ceremony. They would like to be in there to feel the joyful process of conferment – recognition of the most prestigious university in Malaysia on our beloved sensei.
“Daisaku Ikeda!” – these words were announced once and my heart pondered fast. I was touched when the word by word was read by the Vice-Chancellor, Dr. Ghauth. Deep inside my heart, I congratulated sensei. His efforts were once again, recognized, acknowledged. I pledged in my heart, “I will not leave you (the path of mentor and disciple). I will, from now onwards, to fight like you, to fight with you. I want to deeply understand the meaning of “baton” that has passed to us and that I want to be the one that grab tight of this baton and truly engage myself in the path of world peace. I will study more and deepen my understanding about you and proudly share with people, your philosophy. I will proudly tell the world that you are my mentor for life and I will take all means to explain and share with people your great efforts and contributions in making this world a better place to stay.”
I heard people asking around, posing question like how do you feel? No single word can actually describe how I feel. But that doesn’t mean that I do not have any impression or what – my deep feeling will lead me to do the right things.
Few weeks before this, I was first informed by a leader – Ooi Li Ting. I was made understand that this conferral ceremony was to be kept low profile – not to be over enthusiastic over it. So, most of us were having this great joy, quietly in our hearts. We were asked as well, to really think of the significance of this event especially at this year. Later, a few prayer objectives were laid down for the big success of this event.
Dr. Boey, an academician from UM had held a special meeting to meet most of our SD members in our Region 2. In this special meet, Dr. Boey shared with us the honor of this conferment with a few Gosho passages. I deeply impressed by his way of presenting his sharing. Indeed, I should say, it was a great piece of sharing – exposing the wisdom that he possessed through his practice all this while. Dr. Boey later spoke to us on our focus in chanting which he laid down 4:
1. To chant that the whole ceremony will be smooth and great success;
2. To chant that the weather on that day will be just nice;
3. To chant that people in UM and Malaysian society will be able, through this conferment, to have a deeper understanding of sensei and SGI; and
4. To earnestly chant that we can really deepen our bond with sensei and have a fresh determination in our practice and studies.
These had become our prayer objectives from that moment onward. Each student house had later agreed to have chanting sessions – once in the morning and once in the evening, each 1 hour – to chant according to these objectives. I should say it was really a hard challenge to do so. There were times when we have a full-1-hour-session with full attendance. There were times, as well, when there was only 1 or 2. The feeling of seeing most of the housemates waking up as early as 6 in the morning to perform the Morning Prayer was so touched. The feeling of each of us was really towards the same goal, the same objective, will eventually charge the life to the fullest – and that’s what made the day even greater.
At the same time, we were told to standby. Tasks were given from time to time. Sometimes it could be some clarifications on certain matters regarding the university. Sometimes, the tasks can be difficult and at time, seemed impossible. Nevertheless, we will still try to do the best, just to ensure that the ceremony will go smooth.
Seats were actually limited. Not all can actually get into the hall – Dewan Tunku Canselor – to witness the ceremony. However, Academy M was told that we were given a little privilege where we can send in as many names as we liked, and we will be given as many as possible seats. At the end of the day, we were given about 15 seats – a few of them were students from UTAR. I can feel that most of them really chanted hard to join this ceremony. They would like to be in there to feel the joyful process of conferment – recognition of the most prestigious university in Malaysia on our beloved sensei.
“Daisaku Ikeda!” – these words were announced once and my heart pondered fast. I was touched when the word by word was read by the Vice-Chancellor, Dr. Ghauth. Deep inside my heart, I congratulated sensei. His efforts were once again, recognized, acknowledged. I pledged in my heart, “I will not leave you (the path of mentor and disciple). I will, from now onwards, to fight like you, to fight with you. I want to deeply understand the meaning of “baton” that has passed to us and that I want to be the one that grab tight of this baton and truly engage myself in the path of world peace. I will study more and deepen my understanding about you and proudly share with people, your philosophy. I will proudly tell the world that you are my mentor for life and I will take all means to explain and share with people your great efforts and contributions in making this world a better place to stay.”
I heard people asking around, posing question like how do you feel? No single word can actually describe how I feel. But that doesn’t mean that I do not have any impression or what – my deep feeling will lead me to do the right things.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Life and death
How saddening when you heard of another person that you knew, had just passed away at such a young age. Any idea of where will he/she go after this? Every religion or belief has its own say about this. Each claims to be the truth but none can really assure us with their answer. We did not hear from them after that, they did not write us letter. There is no angel coming down and tells us that, "Hey don't worry, he is alright up there". So to me, it is no longer that important as to the question where you go after you died. Most important is how you really lived when you are still alive. Mitch Albom talks about death in his novels, but mostly reflected on the life time.
A friend of mine had just left us. I can no longer hear her encouraging words, can no longer hear of her sharing of how she struggled through her life time, challenging her obstacles with full of conviction, deep faith. Nevertheless, from her, I learnt how to be strong. How to be a caring person. How to give without take. How to overcome challenges through strong faith. She will stay in my heart, as a great friend, forever till my last breath.
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Home
WAS listening to Home, by Michael Buble. It is a nice song, one of my favourites. Ehem, and how I got to know this song? Yeah, I remembered. ShiWei dedicated this song to me months ago. Far away (though not as far as those who are overseas) from me beloved family members, I do miss them from time to time, especially lately. I am looking towards to be back home with them. Miss you all!
Saturday, May 1, 2010
Company Law?
Company Law is just damn interesting actually. Nay, forget about the exam. I am not that nerd, studying just for exam? That's no longer my style! Getting more and more enjoy with studying law, each subject has its own interesting part - hey, not JURISPRUDENCE! I still hate dislike this paper, though. Too abstract, can't even catch what tung tung!
Company Law is quite technical, everything to do with sections and sections. All those alien terms, but thanks to Chin Ting. She has enlightened me so much that I can easily grasp the whole idea now - though, not sufficient to pass yet. Not sure why, although I can't really remember all these technical procedural and subtantive parts, I am loving this kind of law more than those abstract ones.
Still have a day to go! Just be more focus and enjoy all along the way fighting for the paper! I just know, I enjoy learning new things. So even if I failed, let it be!
Still have a day to go! Just be more focus and enjoy all along the way fighting for the paper! I just know, I enjoy learning new things. So even if I failed, let it be!
Friday, April 30, 2010
Legal Aid
Cool, I kinda love this picture. This was taken by Iggy, after an interview session with Ms Jessie from the Legal Aid Centre, KL. Initially, I was expecting to have a great interview to clear my doubts regadring the legal aid services provided by them. It was a sad case. The one who supposed to be there for our interview was at court doing dock brief. So Ms Jessie was there to help us with some very simple introduction of the centre. Anyway, the interview was conducted in order for me to complete my project paper weeks ago. The whole process of writing this paper has given me more and more exposure of the legal aid services provided in Malaysia. Indirectly, the interest of getting involve in this line has grown deep inside my heart. In some way it has affected my clear picture of what I wanted to do after I graduate. Now, I should hold back my plan and see how it goes.
A Friday!
Trying hard, but nay, nothing can get into my mind. Is just like trying to fill up a leaking pail with water. I failed, slow progress. Slacking too much that I have no idea what's wrong with me. I have taken too much things into my emotional consideration, and being a bit too sensitive over little thing. I should free myself from all these, all these that can pull me down. The nearer we get to the goal, the more difficulties that will come into being to stop us? Is that the reason? Or the main factor is myself, and that's why people say, the greatest enemy is still myself?
Have not been doing well in every single matter in my life. I have declared defeated even before the start of each struggle. What's wrong again? I have no idea, I have lost the spirit to fight for my self-victory. I no longer care what are their expectations on me. I am being myself. Damn!
2 more papers to go. Just 2 more.
Have not been doing well in every single matter in my life. I have declared defeated even before the start of each struggle. What's wrong again? I have no idea, I have lost the spirit to fight for my self-victory. I no longer care what are their expectations on me. I am being myself. Damn!
2 more papers to go. Just 2 more.
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