Saturday, March 19, 2011

Peace in mind


Life has been so hectic recently. 
It is time to stop my steps and take a look on myself, 
to really appreciate myself 
and to love myself more. 
With this piece of music, 
I take a seat, 
and relax through the night,
seeking for the peace
in my mind. 

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

I'm coming home

It keeps on calling in my mind, coming home, coming home. Her voice is nice, and it touches my heart, deeply.  And that made me started to think of my family members, one by one. I want to go home, I am coming home, tell the world that I'm coming home. 

Monday, March 7, 2011





I’m coming home
I’m coming home
Tell the World I’m coming home
Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits and they’ve forgiven my mistakes
I’m coming home, I’m coming home
Tell the World that I’m coming

[Diddy]
Back where I belong, yeah I never felt so strong
(I’m back baby)
I feel like there’s nothing that I can’t try
And if you with me put your hands high
(put your hands high)
If you ever lost a light before, this ones for you
And you, the dreams are for you

I hear “The Tears of a Clown”
I hate that song
I feel like they talking to me when it comes on
Another day another Dawn
Another Keisha, nice to meet ya, get the math I’m gone
What am I ‘posed to do when the club lights come on
Its easy to be Puff, its harder to be Sean
What if the twins ask why I aint marry their mom (why, damn!)
How do I respond?
What if my son stares with a face like my own
And says he wants to be like me when he’s grown
Sh-t! But I aint finished growing
Another night the inevitible prolongs
Another day another Dawn
Just tell Taneka and Taresha I’ll be better in the morn’
Another lie that I carry on
I need to get back to the place I belong

[Dirty Money - Chorus]
I’m coming home
I’m coming home
Tell the World I’m coming home
Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits and they’ve forgiven my mistakes
I’m coming home, I’m coming home
Tell the World that I’m coming


[Diddy - Verse 2]
“A house is Not a Home“, I hate this song
Diddy Coming Home lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com/diddy-coming-home-lyrics.html

Is a house really a home when your loved ones are gone
And n-ggas got the nerve to blame you for it
And you know you woulda took the bullet if you saw it
But oyu felt it and still feel it
And money can’t make up for it or conceal it
But you deal with it and you keep ballin’
Pour out some liquor, play ball and we keep ballin’
Baby we’ve been living in sin ’cause we’ve been really in love
But we’ve been living as friends
So you’ve been a guest in your own home
It’s time to make your house your home
Pick up your phone, come on

[Dirty Money - Chorus]
I’m coming home
I’m coming home
Tell the World I’m coming home
Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits and they’ve forgiven my mistakes
I’m coming home, I’m coming home
Tell the World that I’m coming


[Diddy - Verse 3]
“Ain’t No Stopping Us Now“, I love that song
Whenever it comes on it makes me feel strong
I thought I told y’all that we won’t stop
We back cruising through Harlem, Viso blocks
It’s what made me, saved me, drove me crazy
Drove me away than embraced me
Forgave me for all of my shortcomings
Welcome to my homecoming
Yeah it’s been a long time coming
Lot of fights, lot of scars, lot of bottles
Lot of cars, lot of ups, lot of downs
Made it back, lost my dog (I miss you BIG)
And here I stand, a better man! (a better man)
Thank you Lord (Thank you Lord)

[Dirty Money - Chorus]
I’m coming home
I’m coming home
Tell the World I’m coming home
Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday
I know my kingdom awaits and they’ve forgiven my mistakes
I’m coming home, I’m coming home
Tell the World that I’m coming

Saturday, February 26, 2011

And it continues to ring in my mind.

And it continues to ring in my mind, it simply reminds me about how sweet you are. Thanks for sharing it with me.



It's Auburn 
And J.R. 

'Cause I'm all about him, him, him, him, him 
And he's all about me, me, me, me, me 
And we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang 
About nobody-e-e-e 

'Cause I'm all about him, him, him, him, him 
And he's all about me, me, me, me, me 
And we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang 
About nobody-e-e-e 

Well, had him shooting for me like a ball team 
Every guy was a knock out, Don King 
But not none of 'em had smarts, that's my thing 
It's not enough to have balls, Spalding, ha 
One day by Starbucks 
I bumped into a guy rocking black Chucks 
He said "Excuse me beautiful," I said, "Aww, shucks" 
And then he asked, "Well, ay, wanna grab lunch?" 

Never ever ever met a guy so fly 
Got me hooked like apple pie, I 
Think I'm falling and I don't know why 
But I won't fight these butterflies 

'Cause I'm all about him, him, him, him, him 
And he's all about me, me, me, me, me 
And we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang 
About nobody-e-e-e 

'Cause I'm all about him, him, him, him, him 
And he's all about me, me, me, me, me 
And we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang 
About nobody-e-e-e 

And I swear what we have is just super cool 
The way he's always in my head like a Bluetooth 
I got a text from him, he said come through 
Told me that he wants to kick it, Kung Fu 
Don't do nothing much at all 
Just we and his boys watching football 
He asked for a kiss (Muah) So I gave him two 
He said, "Well, thankyou, baby," I said, "You're welcome, boo" 

Never ever ever met a guy so fly 
Got me hooked like apple pie, I 
Think I'm falling and I don't know why 

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/all-about-him-lyrics-auburn.html ]

But I won't fight these butterflies 

'Cause I'm all about him, him, him, him, him 
And he's all about me, me, me, me, me 
And we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang 
About nobody-e-e-e 

'Cause I'm all about him, him, him, him, him 
And he's all about me, me, me, me, me 
And we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang 
About nobody-e-e-e 

No, I don't need no fancy cars 
And I don't need no diamond rings 
My baby is all I need and more 
'Cause I don't need those extra things 

It's not about you (Oh-oh-oh-oh) (It's not about you) 
It's not about them (Oh-oh-oh-oh) (It's not about them) 
It's all about me (Oh-oh-oh-oh) (It's all about me) 
And it's all about him (Oh-oh-oh-oh) (It's all about him) 

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah 
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah 
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah 
Said it's all about him, yeah 

'Cause I'm all about him, him, him, him, him 
And he's all about me, me, me, me, me 
And we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang 
About nobody-e-e-e 

'Cause I'm all about him, him, him, him, him 
And he's all about me, me, me, me, me 
And we don't give a dang, dang, dang, dang, dang 
About nobody-e-e-e 

(Oh-oh-oh-oh) 'Cause I'm all about him 
(Oh-oh-oh-oh) 'Cause I'm all about him 
(Oh-oh-oh-oh) I'm all about him 
(Oh-oh-oh-oh) And we don't give a dang, dang, dang 
(Oh-oh-oh-oh) It's all about you 
(Oh-oh-oh-oh) It's all about you, boy 
(Oh-oh-oh-oh) It's all about you 
(Oh-oh-oh-oh)






 Love you.




Monday, February 14, 2011

Betray

Just always bear in mind, betray is for once and forever. Once you have breached the trust, do not think that you can simply expect the one that you have betrayed to just wipe off the pain and fear you have planted in his soul. 

Don't try your luck to mend something that you have damaged. Don't even think of blaming the one for not being able to forgive you. Pretty obvious that one can't trust you again after much harms that you have made. You can never expect someone to simply forgive you after you have come forth and give him a hard slap on his face. You can never ask the one to act as if there is no past. The dark past is there. Whatever it is, do think of stopping whatever you are doing at the back. The more you do, the more you cracked the damage. 

Thursday, February 3, 2011

172 New Year’s Gosho

HAVE received a hundred slabs of steamed rice cake and a basket of fruit. New Year’s Day marks the first day, the first month, the beginning of the year, and the start of spring.1 A person who celebrates this day will accumulate virtue and be loved by all, just as the moon becomes full gradually, moving from west to east,2 and as the sun shines more brightly, traveling from east to west. First of all, as to the question of where exactly hell and the Buddha exist, one sutra states that hell exists underground, and another sutra says that the Buddha is in the west. Closer examination, however, reveals that both exist in our five-foot body. This must be true because hell is in the heart of a person who inwardly despises his father and disregards his mother. It is like  the lotus seed, which contains both blossom and fruit. In the same way, the Buddha dwells within our hearts. For example, flint has the potential to produce fire, and gems have intrinsic value. We ordinary people can see neither our own eyelashes, which are so close, nor the heavens in the distance. Likewise, we do not see that the Buddha exists in our own hearts. You may question how it is that the Buddha can reside within us when our bodies, originating from our parents’ sperm and blood, are the source of the three poisons and the seat of carnal desires. But repeated consideration assures us of the truth of this matter. The pure lotus flower blooms out of the muddy pond, the fragrant sandalwood grows from the soil, the graceful cherry blossoms come forth from trees, the beautiful Yang Kuei-fei was born of a woman of low station, and the moon rises from behind the mountains to shed light on them. Misfortune comes from one’s mouth and ruins one, but fortune comes from one’s heart and makes one worthy of respect. The sincerity of making offerings to the Lotus Sutra at the beginning of the New Year is like cherry blossoms blooming from trees, a lotus unfolding in a pond, sandalwood leaves unfurling on the Snow Mountains, or the moon beginning to rise. Now Japan, in becoming an enemy of the Lotus Sutra, has invited misfortune from a thousand miles away. In light of this, it is clear that those who now believe in the Lotus Sutra will gather fortune from ten thousand miles away. The shadow is cast by the form, and just as the shadow follows the form, misfortune will befall the country whose people are hostile to the Lotus Sutra. The believers in the Lotus Sutra, on the other hand, are like the sandalwood with its fragrance. I will write you again. 

Nichiren

The fifth day of the first month

Reply to the wife of Omosu



Background
This letter was written to the wife of Omosu in acknowledgment of offerings Nichiren Daishonin had received from her at the beginning of the year. The precise year of this letter, however, remains unclear. Omosu derived his name from that of the area in which his estate was located, Omosu Village in Fuji District of Suruga Province. His full name was Ishikawa Shimbei Yoshisuke. His wife was the elder sister of Nanjo Tokimitsu. In this letter, Nichiren Daishonin explains the operative principle of the Ten Worlds in a simple, poetic way, revealing that both Buddhahood and hell exist within the life of each individual. A person with a heart full of hatred experiences the world of hell; a person with faith in the Lotus Sutra experiences the world of Buddhahood. 

Notes
1. According to the Japanese lunar calendar, spring begins with the first month— that is, on New Year’s Day by that calendar, which on the Gregorian calendar falls somewhere between January  and February .
2. This refers to the fact that the new moon is first seen in the west just after sunset. On successive nights, as  the moon grows fuller, it appears to have moved a little farther toward the east.

The Writing of Nichiren Daishoin - page 1137 - 1138.