Curios and worried

I was in the prison again last Saturday conducting another legal lesson. I was quite alone this time as Jeanette and Iggy were not feeling well and withdrew at very last minute. I was leading a team to conduct the lesson as I am the senior in my team. After the lesson, I have time to talk again with my best friend in the prison. Today, his case will be trial under the appellate jurisdiction. I am worried. He is only a teenager yet he has to face so many obstacles in his life. I know I will have not been as strong as him if I were him. I can only pray for him, wishing the justice to serve on him, be he be given another chance to live as a normal being. How I wish.

I can feel that, my burden is getting heavier, my responsibility is getting greater in every aspect. Be it as a senior, friend, family member, leader or disciple, I am playing bigger and bigger role now. I am not sliding backward even a bit, I know I can't. I have to be strong to uphold my principles, my dreams. I have my own way of thinking, and of course I do have my own way of doing things too. My mentor Daisaku Ikeda once said:

"It's not important how you compare to others, but how you compare to who you were yesterday. If you see that you've advanced even one step, then you've achieved a victory."

(Quoted from Youth A Time For Construction)

This has been a very strong advice to me. From time to time, we have been wasting our precious time to compare what others have done, and had we achieved the same standard as them. Is that really that important? Why are we limiting ourselves to their standard? We not us who set the standard for the rest to follow? I also remember Alen Strike once said:

"Don't compare yourself to anyone in this world. If you do so, you are insulting yourself."

This is pretty true again. Are you thinking that you are not good enough? Never forget that your existence is not by coincidence. There are reasons for your existence regardless what your religion tells. Know how to love, appreciate and respect yourself. Learn how to do so. If not, you are not worth to be given a title as human. Remember, everything start from you yourself. The seed you plant today will result in the fruits that you will harvest in the future. If you never start to plant, you will never see the fruit.

yellowhen

Friends

No matter how hard life seems to be, friends will always be the pillars, supporting me to shoot up to reach for my dreams. What's important to me is not who I have defeated today, but I have done better than yesterday, that the true meaning of winning. I am carrying the hope of my mentor, parents, family, relatives, friends, comrades and teachers. My dream is to serve and contribute to the society, to spread them with eternal happiness. If not me then who? Thus, I must not give up in everything I do, and I vow to achieve total victory in everything.

Everything is over, something is coming

Life is just like that, endlessly repeating the same thing over and over again. Assignments, presentations and even moot court are over, and now I am just waiting for the special event to come and mark it as the end of my semester. This special event will definitely be something which I hate the most - exam! I have less than a month time before exam, but I really do not know where can I start with my revision. Sigh, revision? How?

A weird feeling

Though it was just a few hours meet, the bond has been greater than usual. I don't really know why, just a natural type of feeling. Really appreciate the outing, enjoyed that moment when we can really share what we wanted to. Looking forward the next outing, to share more, to understand each other even deeper. I can feel there are still lots of things concealed tightly inside your heart. Slowly take time to trust me, trust that I can be your loyal listener, a person that will always be there to understand you the most, listen to everything. Take care, sweet boy! Nice stucking inside you!

STOP

Henry!!! Stop spending unnecessarily!!! Crazy! I can't help spending more than I need!!! Gosh! Stop eating expensive meals, stop shopping for non-necessity! Stop hunting for clothes! Stop buying novels, mags!

Spare the rod and spoil the child

What a troublesome thing to do in the midst of my pack schedule. It is just an English class, what is the purpose of asking us to do such thing? Debate. This word sounds quite familiar to me though it has been missing in my life for years. And the motion for the debate this time, of course, is the title of my post. I am from the proposition side, so have to support my motion. No one actually bother to do research. No one even bother about this debate. I believe it will be a very stupid debate class tomorrow.

Test again??

What's going to happen again this time? It is an open-book-test, but I don't think that I can figure out the answers. It's going be hard to search for answers in such a thick book within limited time. Open book or no book - they make no difference to me. As long as it is test, it kills me. By the way, I am not that NATIONAL to use such NATIONAL code. Land Code isn't that suit me. Too complicated, too wordy, and of course BORED!

Anyway, just best of lucks!

yellowhen